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Someday, I hope you feel as absolutely alone as I do now.

i need to find someone that makes me happy. im sick of this bullshit.

1. pick a band and answer only using the band's song titles: The Format

2. are you male or female: Annalise

3. describe yourself: faith in fast cars.

4. your best piece of advice: lets make this moment a crime.

5. describe your last relationship: inches and falling

6. describe your last crush: she doesnt get it

7. say something to someone you have a crush on: time bomb

8. say something to an ex: the first single

9. say something to someone who hurt you severely: the compromise

10. how do you feel right now: pick me up

My mom is totally understanding of my situation. I wish I wasn't being horribly sarcastic.

I'm sick of being unhappy and never doing anything about it. I'm sick of taking everyones shit, and feeling like shit about myself every day. I wish I could forget it all. It means nothing anymore. I don't belong in New Jersey anymore. I don't belong here either.

I haven't posted a public entry in awhile. but that doesn't always mean something i guess.

( stolen from cassie )

I need to get out of here.

Best moment in Florida yet.

I was waiting in the lounge before Macro, and me and a girl started talking and she said she was from NJ. Shes actually from SPARTA which is like 15 miles from my house. We were both freaking out. She doesn't fit in down here either, she gets midnight diner cravings, and she hates the food down here.

We got each others numbers and we are going to hang out this weekend and look at each others yearbooks. It's almost like a relief to have someone down here who really understands who the fuck I am.

And to top that off, I'm going to see Lynrd Skynrd this Friday with the guys.

I get to see The Format in Jacksonville on November 10. AND straylight run.

http://www.talleyrandfestival.com/

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I'm now officially an economics major.

Even though I'm double majoring when I get to UF for business administration or business management with economics.

Theres a gay version of Immy (sp?) from camp at starbucks with me. I'll try to get a picture with my laptop webcam haha.

i think i'm going to get this.

ALL mine. : )

I swear, NO one wants me to have a decent bedroom. The puppy broke the ball point pen on the expensive comforter and then my mom fucking BLEACHES 1 out of 2 sets of my identical sheets. Oh no I didn't bleach them she says, now there are bleach marks and they look GREEN. Not to mention my bed frame has been in the garage for 3 weeks waiting to be assembled.


bitches.

my first cell phone in 5th grade.

Does anyone have pictures from my grad party?

I seriously think my IQ lowers just listening to people down here.

In Microeconomics today we were talking the war and one hick says "Well we should just retract all the troops and nuke the entire Middle East" and I say "Sure that sounds great, they aren't humans or anything I'm sure they will just love radiation cancer" and then the hick says "What does radiation cancer have to do with nuking the Middle East?"

And then when I was leaving campus a church's sign says "Don't be so open minded that your brain falls out"

Seriously, I just LOVE Florida.

I'm hanging out at the library at school, with nothing to do. Anyways, the horses finally came from New Jersey last Thursday. So now we have 4 cats, a puppy and 3 horses running around. So 8 animals to take care of, 5 classes and my job I'm going nuts. Work is going pretty well, they base hours on performance and I have the most hours of any of the non-management positions.

I don't get to see Dominic until Christmas. My mom is giving him $200 for plane tickets, and my sister is covering the rest. I really hate seeing him spend his money on tickets. Not knowing anyone down here is really getting to me, although I'm sure my grades will be better.

My classes are total jokes anyways, I think Dominic's 7th grade sister could do them better in my math class then most of the kids in there. Macroeconomics is probably one of the hardest of all my classes, and it's still easy as hell. I take History online, and I totally just aced some easy ass quiz. MY Microeconomics teacher makes me nuts, but she teaches pretty well, so I probably shouldn't complain. I wish I had klepted out of my Algebra class, but then I would have gone right into Calculus (not to mention I've still not had Pre-Calc?).

Maybe I'll make some friends?